... Is how long my first ever dog lived. Lilly, who was our German Shepperd/Great Dane mix died tonight at 7pm. I was at a friends house when Lyndse called me to tell me, I rushed home as fast as I could. My Mom was hysterical so I took care of all the arrangements. Her death was as expected as it could have been, she had lost 30-40lbs in the last two months and refused to eat anything over the last couple of weeks. The last few of days I had to carry her to the front yard and support her weight so she could go to the bathroom, she was struggling to breath and couldn't walk more than five feet before having to lay down to rest. We all knew it was going to happen very soon. Had it not happened this weekend, I was going to take her in to have her put down early next week.

She was a great dog, extremely smart, extremely loyal to our family and I really don't know what we'll do without her around. And now we're stuck with a giant, dumb as a brick wall, goofy bastard with nobody to bitch at him to keep him in check. That was Lilly's job, and she did it very well. :)

I've been so busy taking care of her that I really haven't had the time to think about it yet. I almost broke down when I first saw her but my Mother was in bad enough shape as it was, I didn't want to make it any harder on her, I'm sure I'll cry like a little girl tonight when I go to bed. I'm sure tomorow will be the worst when I wake up and don't hear her tail thumping the carpet like it usualy does when I wake up, then realize I'll never hear that again.

I don't even remember what life was like before I had her.

Again, no weight loss today, I'm just going to have to stop eating.

And fuck, I'm pathetic as Lyndse. Went bowling yesterday and the first ball I threw, my left foot stuck and I hurt my knee. It didn't hurt at all the rest of the time bowling, and it didn't hurt getting up this morning, but when stretching this morning it started killing me. I can't put any serious weight on it and if I put any lateral pressure on it, it hurts like hell. If I leave my knee bent for too long and try to straighten it, it hurts. I'll just rest it for today and work on other shit.

I would have just walked for the normal distance that I run, but it's too fucking cold.

Got up at 5am this morning, got out to the track at 6am. Today I was able to do 1.5miles in 16 minutes, that is up from around 20 minutes when I first started. I don't know if it actually is the shoes, or if it's just a coincidence, but today nothing on me hurt when running. I'm still at 280lbs, been there since Friday. Even though I eat a good amount over the weekend, I still haven't gained any weight, so I'm happy with it. This week I really have to turn it up and force myself to run, run, run, run.

It's Sunday, nothing has happened.

No weight loss from yesterday and I didn't run today either.

I did buy running shoes though, I will put them to use on Monday.

Down to 280.6lbs as of this morning, almost into the '70s!


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It's officialy a week since I first started working out, I haven't lost any weight from yesterday, but in the first week I've lost 8lbs. I'm up to 5 laps before my achilies tendant starts to get tired, or sore, or hurt, or whatever. Today I was able to run a little more than a full lap straight without stopping. Slowly I'm getting better.

When running along side Lyndse, running is so much easier, I don't even think about how tired I am or how sore my ankles are, but Lyndse quits running before I do and doesn't run as often. So, I'm rarely running next to somebody so all I have to think about is how sore my ankles are and I can't keep making myself run. I need to find somebody that can keep up with me.

Running sucks ass. I worked out a bit last night, my buddy and I are setting up a rutine so I'll be running and lifting now. Down to 282.0lbs as of this morning.

I was able to do the 50 sit-ups in under 2 minutes yesterday, now as long as I can consistantly do them in under 2 minutes every time, I'll be set.

Just got back from running this morning. I'm tired as hell this time, I was able to run 'till my side and neck was hurting before my ankles started to hurt too bad. It hurt like hell just walking back to the car.

Weighed myself this morning and I was 284.2lbs, that's another 2.2lb loss, since yesterday. So far, in the 5 days since I've really started working out, I've lost over 5lbs.

I haven't done sit-ups in a couple of days, so I'll get those in today.

Ran again this morning. I've found a problem though, my muscles, heart, lungs, etc can handle running for a while, but my ankles start to hurt way before I really get tired, and I have to stop. I've found a good 2 minute a lap pace though, so I can work with that. I weighed myself without clothes (just glasses, I have to be able to see the fucking scale) yesterday evening I was 288.0lbs, today after running, I am 286.4lbs, that should drop even more by the afternoon. While I don't expect to keep up the 2lb a day pace, it's a good start. If I can manage to keep it at even as little as .5lb a day (only 3lb a week, wich shouldn't be hard), that would put me at 220lb. Of course, I'd gain muscle and that'd bring my weight back up, so I don't think getting down to 240lb or even 230lb by October is such a far fetched idea as long as I keep everything up.

I thought I had more to post, but I either didn't or just forgot it. Oh well.